Wednesday, 4 November 2020

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Purples and Violets

 

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Purples and Violets

Friday, 30 October 2020

Cee’s Black & White Photo Challenge: Patterns in nature

 

Cee’s Black & White Photo Challenge: Patterns in nature

Friday, 23 October 2020

WEP OCTOBER 2020 - REGRETS - DL

 


WEP OCTOBER CHALLENGE

GRAVE MISTAKE


REGRETS

 

I didn’t kiss him goodbye

I didn’t wave at the gate

I didn’t text him that day

I didn’t return his call

I didn’t know

 

My mistake

My guilt

My sin

My fault

My anger

 

It won’t leave me

I can’t forgive myself

My gravest mistake

Lies in the ground

Covered in dirt

Topped with grass

Weeds grow fast and thick

Hiding my longing

To turn the clock back

Reset the dial

 

I saw the tall black shadow

Ephemeral through the glass pane

The ringing of the doorbell

Boding of dread

Heart beating fast

Hands trembling

Unlocking the door

Collapsing on the floor

Screams tore through the street

My heart left my soul

 

How will I survive

Now he’s not alive

Carry on, they said

You can do it, they said

What do they know?

 

***********

 

 

The night was dark, the road empty, an eeriness descended, a mist enclosed me, suffocating my mind.  That last joint was one too many.  I was happy inside at the party, my mates and my cronies all laughing, joy was in the room.  Then I decided to go home.

Now the night air fills my lungs as I scream in total disbelief.  The screaming and screeching of the brakes as I jab my foot down on the pedal.  I grip the steering wheel, tried yanking it to move out of the way but my mind wasn't clear, my eyes deceived me. 

It was only a shadow.  A trick of my mind.  Seeing shadows in the hedgerows as I sped past.  The white lines in the middle of the road guided me.  All I had to do was keep the wheels in the centre of the road.  It wasn't far to get home.  Five minutes at the most. 

Something was up ahead, glaring lights, space orbs coming at me, right at me, glaring in anger, hurting my eyes.  I squinted, raised a hand to shield my retina from the brightness of the light. A strobe effect blinded me, I trusted to instinct.

My instinct was wrong.

So wrong.

So very, very wrong.

Squealing of tyres, grating of metal on metal as two solid shapes entwined, twisted together, crumpled beneath each, rolling over and over, making me dizzy with vertigo. 

A few moments of silence.  Blessed silence. 

Reality hit.  I’m upside down in my car. Metallic sounds pinging, pricking my consciousness, desperately trying to make sense of what had happened.  What had just happened.

Fumbling with the seat belt clasp, clawing my way through the air bag, wrenching open the car door.  I staggered on to hard ground.  Blood poured from my head.  My hand hurt, my head hurt, my legs were like jelly.

Car headlights showed a tangled mess. 

I saw a man, not moving, still, static, stationary, inert, inanimate.

 Oh God! Oh God! Oh God!

Staggering and stumbling to the other wreck, pulling the mobile from my pocket, with trembling fingers I dialled 999.  Stammering and stuttering out that I needed help, the calm voice in my ear telling me to take a breath and tell them what had happened and where I was. 

A few seconds or minutes, or hours or days later it seemed, sirens screaming, blue lights flashing, illuminating the road and verge. The Police, Fire Brigade and Ambulance services all descended on me, hulking masses of bodies came rushing towards me, at me, bombarding me with questions, wrapping me in a blanket, then strong arms leading me away. 

I tried to look back. 

I didn’t want to look back.  

I couldn’t look back.

Carnage everywhere. 

Blood everywhere. 

Noise everywhere.

Twisted, tormented tubes of metal entwining together, two cars entangled with each other, blue and red flashing lights making the situation so surreal.

It wasn’t worth it.  I’d taken a life.  Not just one life.  I’d taken him from his wife, his children, his parents, his friends.  It should have been me.  If I was going to be so reckless, it should have been me, not this stranger who happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

 

My mistake.

My gravest mistake.

I walked away.

A scratch

A bruise

A sprain or two.

 

One man gone

Forever, no more.

 

How can I live?

With what I did?

It was fun at the time

I’ve committed a crime

 

Not only in law

In my heart

That still beats

Hard and strong

I did wrong

So wrong.

 

I wish I could turn back the clock.

A 6’ x 8’ oblong concrete block.

Is how I spend my time

For my entire lifetime

 

 

***********

 

Late leaving the office

He had no sense

Of what was to come

He just wanted to get home

Apologise

Make up to his wife

She was his life

He couldn’t live without her

It was such an inane row

 

He looked down on his wife

Alone now in her life

He wants to be with her

Comfort her

Wrap his arms around her

He smells her perfume

Like flowers in bloom

He tastes her salty tears

Wishes they had more years

 

He feels his essence disappear

He tries to draw near

Her eyes are glassy

She glances bravely

In to the sky

To say her final goodbye

She can’t feel him

His light grows dim

***********

 

I can’t believe you’ve gone

It was too soon

Too sudden

To depart

From this earth

From this life

I think of you every day

In many ways

In my periphery

I see you

I remember you

A few days have gone by

I haven’t cried

The tears will come

At home

On my own

Suppressing the feelings

Touching on nerve endings

A sound

A thought

A song

A phrase

The silence is unbearable

The bond unbreakable

You are gone

It’s too late




Word count: 964

 




Cee’s Black & White Photo Challenge: Needs to have the letters O and U in the word



Mini Mouse hair clips

Wednesday, 21 October 2020

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Orange and Green (separately or combined)


 

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Orange and Green (separately or combined)


Here is my entry for this week's challenge:



 Orange teddy bears on a green hat trinket box


Green beetle wings

Green crochet dress adorned with green beetle wings as worn by Ellen Terry for her performance in Macbeth at the Lyceum Theatre, London in 1888.  1,000 iridescent beetle wings were used.  The wings are shed naturally from the green jewel beetle from SE Asia.



 Green tomatoes


Home-made orange cake

Green lorry

Solar green fairy


Friday, 16 October 2020

 



Cee’s Black & White Photo Challenge: Outside of Your Home or View

Wednesday, 14 October 2020

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Pink and Yellow (separately or combined)

 



Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Pink and Yellow (separately or combined)


Here are my photos for the above theme:


Yellow daffodils


Pink Roses


Pink and Yellow roses


Pink stiletto shoe made from chocolate (too good to eat)


Yellow statue underneath a bridge


Hand-knitted pink rabbit